SHES BACK!

Sorry for the almost week long break. (ok a week long break) This week has been kind of crazy. I got my hours reduced at work on friday, I am loving spending more time with Ham(happened before hours got cut), had lots of doctors appointments, and other finishing up meetings.

I am not worried about my hours cut, I have been on the job hunt all week and well If my company thinks Im too bubbly, and personalble, and cant handle me then they dont deserve me. I am a good, hard working employee and I can promise that it will always be that way.

I have been in alot of pain. But I kind of expected it, due to stress makes me hurt worse cause my body cant heal and everything works twice as hard and fast to rebuild when stressed.

Sunday I was making dinner and Ham came in the door with....

He is sooooooooo sweet and good to me! He said that since I had a bad week, and had been hurting he just wanted to make me feel better and that he loves me... I am such a lucky girl! I feel blessed, and as if for once in my life something is going right. Ham and I have not really had a fight, or argument, We find alot of things in common for interests, and such. He treats me so well. It's hard to believe that we have almost been together for a year...

This week is planned to job hunt it out, and find something soon! I plan to work out some more, and keep things going!

I hope ya all have a good week!

ARISE and SHINE FORTH

Why Hello There Gorgeous!

Today I drove to work admiring this!

This is not justifiable.... My lovely friend Jamie Caught it in better light...

There are somethings that can just make a day start off well and I think a beautiful sunrise is one of them!

Today is a busy day. Woke up way to early... Work has been steady, and today is the appointment that I have that can potentially make things look brighter! YAY!

The weekend was great. Friday Ham and I spent with friends, and then watched movies and passed out.

Saturday we went to a Hockey game and we Whooped Portland and it should have been 7 to 3 but it was 5 to 3 due to the ref's not calling fair shots, then yesterday even though we didn't go we beat them 6-1! GO CHIEFS GO!

Sunday was a nice quiet day, I spent most of it with his mom while he did Gun stuff! (Yay! I can't wait for spring...) This girl wants to go shoot at some pop cans! - Classy, I know right... Haha!

Sunday I woke up in major pain, so most was spent going over recipe's and just chatting and watching TV.

Monday, Ham was a sweet man, he drove me to town due to snow and bad roads so I didn't have to drive.

Seems like everyday this week something new is happening. I am crossing my fingers for tonight and would love yours crossed too!!!

I am interested in finding more good recipes.

I know that I am still not on pinterest yet but when I browse it doens't show recipes, Is it because im not signed up?

I know many of you are in love with it... But why?

XOXOXO



Fly Friday

YAY! FRIDAY IS HERE!

I don't think it could have come at a better time!

This week has been harsh with painful days, and doctors appointments, and a SLLLOOOW work week. :(

I have an idea things may be starting to look up! I have an appointment on tuesday that I would love your fingers crossed for,  I can't share much now! But it's good!

I got stuck twice going home last night, and so I decided I was going to walk to work this morning! It was nice.  It was cold, but only took 20 mins and it made me feel good!

I am hurting pretty bad today but stoked for dinner with Ham's co-worker and his lovely wife!

Then tomorrow its another Hockey game! The Chiefs, vs Portland!

Let's hope this week there will be some...

Last week it was a BOORING game up til the last 5 mins, and still no Fights.

Even though we one!

Then Sunday will be a family day... The last Sunday for a while... due to his schedule changing.

Alrighty I will post more later this was a on the fly friday!

XOXOXO love ya all!



What I'm Loving Wensday!



What I'm Loving Wednesday!

I'm {LOVING}.... the snow! Here In my area the snow has not stopped falling for a few days!

The following are views from my work!

It's sad my phone gave a blue hughe to the pictures, But Its still pretty!

I'm {LOVING}.... I am loving how slow work is today. I am not feeling the best, so this is a plus!

I'm {LOVING}.... That I have a boyfriend who loves me! He has been amazing to me, and I hope that this is a good thing God has brought to my life to stay a while! (he fixed my heaters last night in my apartment!)

I'm {LOVING}.... The support I have been getting from my friends and family this week! I love you all!

I'm {LOVING}.... That its Wednesday! Its almost Friday! yay!

I hope everyone is safe out there, where ever you are! Have a good night!

XOXOXO

BURRRR, Baby It's cold outside!

GOOD MORNING!

If I could drink coffee, I would be in heaven this morning!

I woke up to a massive Pile of snow outside my window. It even buried my car :( My skills of trying to make it to work on time I was not able to snap a pic but I will when I go home for lunch!

It is going to be a Hot Water and Honey day or Marshmellow Root tea day.

My weekend was quiet. Friday was me at home relaxing. Saturday I went to the doctor, Apparently even if you don't have tonsils, You CAN get strep throat. Thanks Ham! He had no voice and swore it was just sinus... Ha! So Saturday was spent resting except to go to the Hockey game! We won! 5-3! 

Then Sunday was a typical family day with Hams family and met one of his friends!

So My weekend was lame and quiet!

My Monday was busy but good. I am hoping things are starting to look up! Yay!

I will Post the pics of our snow after lunch!

I guess winter had finally hit the Inland Northwest!

XOXOXO

LIfe Lessons In all Seriousness

This post will be more on the serious sides of things. I hope that me sharing my Journey through the next few months and this year will help someone. If you don't like what I have to say. STOP reading then because this is the start of my personal journal through this! Thanks!


With that being said. This week has been a trial for me. Monday was a normal Monday, filled with the boy in the morning, then me doing errands, and then getting ready for work, and the late shift. Wasn't so bad but work was hectic.
Tuesday was one of the worst days of my life. Work was crazy, I had crabby/ rude customers all day long. I tried not it to let me get down. But I had my weekly doctor appointment for my shots on Tuesday. Well My doctor said that nothing we have tried seems to be working. My kidneys and my bladder are getting worse. and nothing is helping. So she decided that I am going on a drug that is a form of Chemotherapy (YIKES! Granted it only has a little in it but still ) and other things mixed. Most of it is other drugs and doesn't have much chemo in it, but still. I will have to be on this for a minimum of a year. It may take 3-6 months for anything to work to feel better. But side affects can happen starting day 1- 3 months, and last up to a year of not being on the drug. BUT it has miracle studies of working and fixing my "disease" that I have.

So Tuesday night was spent on the phone with my mom Bawling my eyes out and crying in Ham's lap. He normally stays on Tuesday and thank goodness he worked days. I was a train wreck. He took me to dinner, and we sat and talked and he told me once again that No matter what happened he would stay by my side through the whole thing and that he would help me out! I can't say how much my love for him has grown this week.

I am scared. I don't want to loose my hair, I don't want to be sick, I just want to FEEL NORMAL...




This being one of my favorite quotes I then decided to try and make the best of my situation. At least I'm not dying(okay well in my mind I was. But still there are worse cases out there. ) I will live and survive. This is just another challenge.

Wednesday was another SMACK to my face.
Although I can't say to much detail, however work was extremely hard, and lets just say...


So I am learning to accept that If people are not happy with me being me well then as the saying always goes.

God always opens one door when he closes another... (or however it goes) has been on my thoughts the last two days.

This week has taught me to accept me for me and I am and will be me.

I cherish the people who are close to me. A few people have been through my side through all of this and with out them I would be lost. I love my friends and family and well If you want to have me in your life than fine. But I won't beg for your friendship.



It's time for me to DANCE in the RAIN!! and I'm gonna start. I think 2012 will have new things headed my way!

Please pray for my health. I am scared. Please pray I get to keep my hair! Please pray that God opens doors for me!

Thank you for reading! Its FRIDAY! and I am excited!

Have a good weekend!

Do you Dare share.... ??

So I am sitting her thinking of "date" ideas!

The typical dinner and movie, and the Triple play (fun center with mini golf, and bowling and arcade) do get old, its to cold to shoot yet, and to cold for water ideas, and the board walk is frozen ( trust me tried it already!), and we are both not into recreational drugs.

I am trying to get creative and think of some stuff to do. So If any of you brave souls have an idea... Please throw one out!

Would LOVE to hear your ideas!

P.s Shopping was fantastic! Review coming next week!

XOXO!

dragged out Friday!

I am sooo happy! This week seems like it dragged by :(

I am closing at work tonight, may grab some WINEO on my way home, and maybe forzen yogurt and a movie and call it a party! Sounds great to me!

Tomorrow is the famous Saturday and Its a Girls day for me! I am gonna go to Spokomton (spokane- well the Ghetto!- Kinda) and do some shopping! Then this girl has plans to chill with a few friends and then sit at home and veg sat night! 

Sunday as always will be spent with Ham... I hope he gets up early like said. its supposed to be whatever  I feel like doing. Im thinking Lunch and movie Or Lunch and SHOOTING!! :) Last time we went it was cold and snow was around... So Maybe we will see depends on how this chicka is feeling.

Monday I will be back in action and I will share my great finds!! Hope you all enjoy!

Have a good weekend!

XOXO!

SYW

1) I used to be the girl that/ who___________________ But I'm not that girl anymore, because ___________!

I used to be the girl who would sit and keep shy and stay to my self But I'm not that girl anymore because I have learned to love myself and be free!

          2) Describe your self in Three words

Sassy. Airhead. Personable.

           3) I struggle with....
I struggle with really knowing the value of myself. I have past relationships and family I thank (not) for this. I sometimes dont really think I diserve the best that I do in the world. Its a bad issue and I am addressing it!

            4) If I close my eyes right now...
I would be on the beach somewhere or in the woods having fun! haha

          5) I wish I could live with out ______________ But that isn't happening!
My phone! I have always been attached to them since I was little! :)

This is a blog hop! Link up and Enjoy!

2012- A new start

Another year has came and gone! Quiet frankly I am so excited to see what this year has to bring!

Last year definitely had it's UP's and DOWNS, But I was glad to say good bye to 2011. 2012 has been really relaxed so far! I have spent most of it working!

Also I have been trying to think of some really good goals. So with out further saying...

 

<3 This year I want to save up and Go back to school. I want to further my education. I would like to be enrolled in college no later than the start of 2013. I have always said that I will go back and finish school. But I keep putting it off. This is the year!

<3 I will continue My IC diet, and try to stay as healthy as possible and hopefully feel better. I want to be able to go 3 days with out hurting in a row if possible. Heck even one would be great! So my goal is just to be healthy. Not to loose weight because I am happy where I am at, But just overall more healthy.

<3 My Third resolution will be to get in a new  vehicle (hoping march will be the lucky month) that will better suite me and my needs. I want a vehicle with 4 wheel drive and that can go where I want it to. I want to be able to own my first car that will be mine and not co signed by anyone... a Car that will just be mine!

 

<3 I would like to start giving back more to those that need it. I am wanting to get or find information on about helping with big brother/ Big sister or something that can help local young kids that need a mentor. Or even just volunteering with disabled children! It's something I have always wanted to do. I don't want kids, But I am good with them and I love helping them grow!

<3 To pay off my new medical debt! This is a huge deal. I entered 2011 debt free and walked out with it. So I want to pay that off and Save money again! I am not in college and my bank account looks like I live a college life. So Just to save money and pay down my debt. Once I get ok health wise I feel a Job #2 will be needed.

<3 Spend more time with my true friends. I have learned this last year that friends may come and go no matter how bad you want to hold on to them. Some of the friends that I have known since I was younger are now no longer friends. I have learned that as much as I would like to think things are supposed to be different, I can NOT change them. I have a few very good friends whom I trust everything with... and I need to spend more time with them and kindle my relationships.

<3  Make my blog more on a regular basis, and have more followers. I  made this sort of like an online journal/ way to add things I love and what not. I don't do pintrest... Yes drop your mouth shut up! I know! :)  So this is my space and well It kind of saddens me that only 2 people follow me. Not that I'm out to force to but I would just love a few more followers!

Well! I hope you all had a wonderful New Years and May your 2012 be all that you want it to be!

XOXO!